Day 7: The Noise Returns

Over the last few days, I’ve focused on eating more calories, which has gotten much easier both from the focus and the waiting of the meds. This has greatly reduced the appetite suppression, and I’ve had an ever-so-slight return of the food noise.

Since mid-day yesterday, I’ve found myself returning to the thoughts of food a few times, particularly the unhealthy foods that flood me with “happiness.” The ones that got me into this in the first place. Luckily, they haven’t been loud. “Oh, a burger sounds nice” is easily dismissed. For now.

I am approaching this journey as a chance to re-learn how to listen to my body and how to approach my relationship with food. So far, it’s been great, but wild. Before this week, someone telling me they had no interest in food felt akin to someone telling me they climbed Mt. Kilimanjaro – something a few have done, but isn’t realistic for us mere mortals. But I felt it. I know it’s possible to walk past food and not feel the urge.

As I complete the second injection tonight, I’m excited to be on this journey. To have an opportunity to re-learn these things.